A letter from home. P.S. to Matthew: I need that paperwork for Highlands back by no later than mid-February, otherwise my rent will go up $50. I would like to be able to pay that to nathan. Also, for myself as well as family and friends, there is a great perplexity as to how someone who was shown such great mercy (and I would not wish you any less than what was shown you, because I love you so much) can be so unforgiving. Since you will not talk to me, perhaps you would like to call them and explain. As you see, I have included the bible I once bought you. Have you bothered to look at one in the last four years? Why don't you crack this one to come up with some clarity in your thinking? The marker is at a parable that may help you.
The parable that he marked, by the way, was the parable of the evil servant. You know, the one who is forgiven by his master but doesn't forgive his fellow servant, and so gets cast out. Just to clarify that one. And the incident I believe he is refering to here is the one in which I caused the death of my step-brother. To which, I was shown great mercy by my step-brother's family. They did forgive me, unimaginable as that still is to me.
P.S. to Abbie: I made two promises to you about your wedding. I promised to pay answer to that promise was an attitude and a slammed door. Funny, because it was me who had just lost a church to belong to, new friends, and the joy of being able to worship with my daughter. You probably still haven't considered them as such, but those are some of the costs I have already borne for your wedding. It would be hard to imagine, but if I do not hear from you before your wedding, then I will assume with a broken heart that you do not want me in your wedding. However, even if you let your ostracism of me drag out until just before your wedding, I assure you, I will still be there, because I love you so much. However, you need to also consider, that for family and friends associated with me who have to travel to come to your wedding, you cannot wait until the last minute to reconcile with me. They have to make plans to attend, and most, if not all are presently hesitant to do so under the current circumstances. If you wait too long, that also will be something else we will never recover.
What happened here was that my dad was upset when my mom visited my sister's church and took communion. Granted, he had been given warning that it was likely to happen, but he showed up anyways. After that he had a meeting with the pastor, at which he told him that he was not a man of God and that he would no longer be attending the church. Abbie had my mom visit the church because she wanted mom to see the church before she gets married in it. Go figure.
This last one really hurt. Really hurt. I'm not sure what we're going to do about it anymore. I think he's pretty far gone from us anymore - and this was just a portion of the vitriol that was contained in that latter. The greater part of it was aimed at my brother, which I won't reprint. These last two addendums I think more than demonstrate his current feelings towards us.
Miss Any?
Alright, we're gonna give this a shot
January 02, 2005
Let's see how badly I failed these last year
December 31, 2004
Okay, so its trendy
December 28, 2004
Its just like that asshole, Joe fucking Lieberman. Annoying and rather pointless.
December 27, 2004
Is this a typical Christmas?
December 26, 2004