I realized recently that I'm one whiny, bitchy mother fucker.
Why?
Because I honestly have a pretty great girlfriend, and I complain nonstop. In all truth, its much better to be dating Erin than to be single. And she isn't a bad girl, she's definitely very smart, hot, witty, all those good things that I've always really wanted in a girl. She's busy as all hell - that's true - and so a lot of times we don't see each other for some long periods of time, but that's not entirely her fault. I'm certainly insanely busy myself - hell, last night I was in the labs til 4 in the morning. I'm about to head back there now (after a long morning of procrastinating and doing laundry so I don't have to wear size 40 boxers with no button on the front).
So....why am I so god damn bitchy about her? Why can't I just accept the good thing thats come my way and deal?
Probably because I'm picky. I didn't realize I was before, but I think that despite the fact that Erin is probably a lot of guy's dream girlfriend, she isn't mine. I don't mean to sound like its one little flaw, and there are things about our relationship (see the entry's during winter carny about her exboyfriend...and spring break entries) that blow ass, but she isn't bad.
I'm not sure what I want anymore. I really don't. Luke seems to think that I need an ex-goth chick who's jaded with the intellectual scene but still very intelligent and witty. I think he's probably partially right, at the very least. I need someone less perfect than Erin in some ways. That's odd, but true.
Oh well. One more month up here and than my life changes again. Off to try to get a job, off to the "real world". So things will change, and this too will pass.
Miss Any?
Alright, we're gonna give this a shot
January 02, 2005
Let's see how badly I failed these last year
December 31, 2004
Okay, so its trendy
December 28, 2004
Its just like that asshole, Joe fucking Lieberman. Annoying and rather pointless.
December 27, 2004
Is this a typical Christmas?
December 26, 2004