In two days, I graduate, with a degree in computer engineering. I feel pretty hollow, as in, I've spent the last four years of my life busting my ass for this? So far it hasn't gotten me much more than wierd looks and understanding laughs. Some money and a piece of paper saying that I have a job would be nice.
I can't believe that I'm done. That I'm leaving Michigan Tech for good. It's pretty unreal. I just went to the lights and the DT for the last time, and realized that that was probably the last time I was going to sit there, drinking a beer, and not feel old. Or out of place. I looked around and recognized people everywhere I looked, and I realized that was the last time that was going to happen too.
Tonight is sort of a whole lot of last times. The last time Erin drove me back to my place in her jeep at night. The last time I'm probably going to have kissed her. She, apparently, doesn't believe in "last times", but now I feel like I'm never going to get to say good-bye. We never had a good last date. We never had a good last time in bed. We never had much except this strange tapering off, and now I'm going to be gone in 2 days, and she is going to be gone in 2 days, and it feels wierd. Like its been over for a long time, and I just didn't know it.
Its the end of an era. I just feel like I'm fading out, instead of going out on a bang like I feel like I should be doing. There is no bang, just a puff of smoke, and then after, it'll probably be like I was never here.
I'm going to miss this place.
Miss Any?
Alright, we're gonna give this a shot
January 02, 2005
Let's see how badly I failed these last year
December 31, 2004
Okay, so its trendy
December 28, 2004
Its just like that asshole, Joe fucking Lieberman. Annoying and rather pointless.
December 27, 2004
Is this a typical Christmas?
December 26, 2004