At some point in time I became a social creature. This was an odd revelation for me, as it certainly wasn't always true.
Back in high school - ah, nostalgia - I wasn't much of a "people" person. Which meant that I enjoyed being around people as much as a possum enjoys being in a five lane highway. In Los Angeles. At five o'clock. I usually even had the same look in my eyes - vacant recognition of the impending doom that are the lights of the oncoming cars. I didn't handle those situations well. Nothing says "I'm a confident, happening kinda guy" like having your hands stuck in your pockets, your head bowed, your back slouched, and mumbling every word that comes out of your mouth.
I suppose it didn't help that I was fifty pounds heavier then. It also didn't really ever help that both my brother and my sister are greek-bronzed gods / godesses. I, however, was Milton.
Leaving home of course (and escaping the inevitable comparison to either sibling) helped. But I think what eventually did it was gaining some sort of confidence in myself, and my abilities. Can I play basketball? Hell no. Am I coordinated at anything physical? About as much as a dead moose. But I can be witty, I can be funny, I'm slightly goofy, and I dropped fifty pounds. All of which helps.
The ironic thing is, I no longer enjoy sitting on my ass all evening, contemplating my loathing for all things human. While plotting the world's destruction is enjoyable, its far from a conducive friend-making atmosphere. And I find that now that I'm lacking a bit in the friends department, when they're busy and I'm not, I want to claw my eyes out. I used to make fun of people like me (only to myself of course, there was no one else around really), but social interation really is a necessary part of life. And a lack thereof is really fucking shitty.
So: point of the entry. I need to get out more.
Miss Any?
Alright, we're gonna give this a shot
January 02, 2005
Let's see how badly I failed these last year
December 31, 2004
Okay, so its trendy
December 28, 2004
Its just like that asshole, Joe fucking Lieberman. Annoying and rather pointless.
December 27, 2004
Is this a typical Christmas?
December 26, 2004