When I was in the 4th grade, I had to do one of those pointless "get-to-know-me" assignments that I think teacher's either read about in a book or experience in some delusional dream sometime around 3 a.m. I, of course, took it entirely too seriously. The assigment was to associate a word with each letter in our name, each word having to do with a trait of our personality. I was rather stumped, as I was of course only in the 4th grade. While other kids were using words like "Happy" and "Artful" and poor adjectives of that sort, I was truly attempting to delve into my inner being - a task that I endeavor even now with some trepidation.
Not that it stops me on a night like tonight.
So what did I pick? I was stumped. I asked my mom for advice, and together we pulled out a thesaurus, and went over the possible descriptions of myself. And one word stopped us both short - M is for melodramatic.
Yes, nine years old and I already knew I was a melodramatic son of a bitch.
There's a plethora of reasons I haven't updated in 46 days, some more legitimate than the rest. I sort of promised myself I'd drop off the radar for awhile, an act that was both cowardly and necessary. Melodrama, it seems, fits me even after thirteen years.
A lot has happened recently, a lot that I'll probably drone on about later in another semi-drunken entry, after a few glasses of two buck Chuck like tonight. I'm going to be fairly upset when I run out of my supply - the nearest Trader Joe's is someplace in Texas, and that kinda sucks.
The fact is: I'm in Louisiana, I'm in grad school, and I am, once again, alone. I'm more alone than I ever have been in my life, and this feels me with anxious fear and excitement both at once. I don't know how the next two years will fair. I'm pretty sure it'll include an STD at some point, as well as a lot of drinking and a lot of research. It could be worse.
But it'll most certainly be full of that M-word.
Miss Any?
Alright, we're gonna give this a shot
January 02, 2005
Let's see how badly I failed these last year
December 31, 2004
Okay, so its trendy
December 28, 2004
Its just like that asshole, Joe fucking Lieberman. Annoying and rather pointless.
December 27, 2004
Is this a typical Christmas?
December 26, 2004