One of those things that I find myself wondering from time to time is if everyone else thinks the way I do, or if I'm just really screwy.
Case in point. I'm trying to save some money right now, but I'm running low on food. Not the essentials mind you, but me being the snob that I am, I can't make anything Italian without a fresh loaf of bread, some fresh parmesean cheese, etc. I can't make stir fry without a cornacopia of vegetables - and I only have the basics right now. I can't make fajitas without green peppers... you get the picture. So I get in the car, all set to go to the store, and as I'm driving I begin to get a craving for Mexican - Moe's, that is. They make some killer burritoes.
I must have "made up" my mind about five times, culminating with me pulling into Moe's parking lot. "Fuck them grocery store", I think, "these burritoes kick ass." Of course, it didn't really save me any money, but this is sort of typical me. I'll make up my mind, debate myself into a corner, then impulsively change my mind at the last second.
Another example? I picked a research topic today. On a whim. I just scheduled the next two years of my life, on a whim. I like this other professor's research too, but randomly I picked something else. It really was random too, one of my prof's and I were discussing a homework paper and a few other publications and he offered me a problem as an example of a possible thesis. It sounded kind of cool, so I said I'd do it. Five minutes before that meeting - I was already to tell him that I wasn't going to have him as my advisor and that I wanted to still look around for awhile.
Yeah. I don't get me either.
Its not that I think my choices are necessarily bad, its just that at some point my brain tends to override itself once I've done too much self-arguing and just make a decision - for better or worse. Would I have liked other research better? Maybe. Will I like this research? Maybe. My brain did its random picking (with a variable X? And all the algorithmesque people laugh) and now I'm going with that.
Does anyone else ever do this? I hope so.
Miss Any?
Alright, we're gonna give this a shot
January 02, 2005
Let's see how badly I failed these last year
December 31, 2004
Okay, so its trendy
December 28, 2004
Its just like that asshole, Joe fucking Lieberman. Annoying and rather pointless.
December 27, 2004
Is this a typical Christmas?
December 26, 2004