Why is it always so hard to get a spot in the diaryland queue to add an entry? Why is that diaryland’s servers, after so much fucking time, still suck donkey balls? Why can’t Andrew just fucking pop some money into them? For the love of fucking god, we all know a million and a half people are gold users, we know you’re getting paid, so fucking remove these goddamn restrictions.
Or don’t, and see if anyone really cares. People are leaving diaryland faster than a homophobe from a S&M gay bar playing “It’s Raining Men” in Key West. I’m fucking around with a blog now, under a new name / persona. I’ll probably make the move permanent, as I alluded to earlier, once I stop fucking around and learn some XML / HTML. I’ll probably pull a few of the entries off here as well and throw them up on there; give it a bit of history at least. I’ll also probably archive all of my entries off of here offline; save them for my own amusement I guess. As much as I’m sick of diaryland and all its annoying problems, I’m going to miss having four or five years of history under this particular name and site.
Anyways, on to the point of this now extremely pointless and pontificating entry. I realized that it is now 1 a.m. (although it won’t be by the time this gets posted) and that means its technically New Year’s Eve, which also means that its time for a new batch of resolutions. For the record, I’m going to review what I previously wrote, and see how much I botched them.
10) GET LAID. For the love of god. I botched it once already, but I'm pretty much assured this once I get back up to Tech. I don't mean to harp on it, and it really doesn't have a whole lot to do with the 2 year thing, but at the same time, my girlfriend is hot, I like her, and its maddening not being able to do anything more than kiss her from time to time for the past two weeks.
Well, this did happen, a lot in fact once I got back up to school. Actually, that’s not totally true: it happened a lot at first, and than became frustratingly slow, than insanely nonexistent. I remedied that situation by trying to get laid nonstop this past summer, including one embarrassing and regrettable incident. Stupid, stupid, stupid. I won’t lie – I’m dying from lack of sex currently – but at the same time, I’m holding out for a decent relationship with someone who is fucking smart and fucking cute. And I do mean both, goddamnit – I’m setting standards from now on.
9) Finish my grad school aps on time. I've got two out to VT and Carnegie Mellon, but I've still got Penn State, MTU, Louisiana State, and USC to go through. Not that I want to go to those last 4 as much as the first 2, but they should have been done and out by now and I'm coming way to close to the deadlines.
Yup, got those all in, some more on time than others. Ended up at LSU – not my first choice. But at least I got in somewhere.
8) Budget myself better. I'm broke ass po', and I don't want to see my credit card bill when it comes in.
Still broke ass po’.
7) Manage to keep a girlfriend when I'm broke ass po'. This is going to take some doing, and if you have any ideas as to how to keep her when I can't spend money on dates, please, let me know.
Managed to do this by running my credit card up to all sorts of unheard levels. It was worth it, for the most part.
6) Build myself a Linux box. I've got 3 boxes, all unused and in various stages of disrepair / being broken, sitting in my bedroom. My main machine is a piece, but that doesn't bother me too much since I use it for the interweb, ftp, some ssh'd coding, a little bit of bittorrent and edonkey, and finally mostly for pr0n. None of that is really intensive (save for the pr0n, but you don't need a processor for that).
This still hasn’t happened, but I’m sort of forcing my hand this year. I got about half the components for Christmas, and if I don’t build a functioning second computer relatively quickly, they’re going to become obsolete and wasted. SO: this might finally get done – this year.
5) Work out more, which includes at least an hour of lifting 3 times a week and at least a half hour of swimming 3 times a week. I'd like it to be closer to an hour of swimming and two of lifting, but that's a little much to be promising right off the bat.
HA. This didn’t happen to such a degree that its like I actively worked against this resolution. That being said, its going to be high on the list again this year. And as an additional slight caveate to that: I look okay. Small gut, admittedly, but you can't tell unless I'm in a wife beater. Its the lack of definition that's pissing me off more than anything.
4) Kick ass in senior design. I currently have either a 3 or a 3.5. I should have a 4.
Close enough. I had a lot of rough times with senior design, but its done, I did get an A, and I can’t complain about it.
3) Snowboard when I get the chance. As much as I can. I love it, but I still suck too much, and I desperately want to be better than I am.
Still suck, still trying to go, but now that I’m at LSU this is pretty much impossible.
2) Keep my girlfriend. I know I know, that's listed above, but she's seriously more than I deserve, and I know it. I just hope that she never realizes it.
She is more than I deserve, at least in terms of looks. She has a fucking six-pack goddamnit – a six-pack. And a tight ass, tight tits, cute face, great personality, she’s smart, she’s witty, she’s driven…yeah. More than I deserve.
That being said, I think us breaking up when we did, how we did, was for the best and was done in the best way possible. That, and she's got more committment issues than a pack of frat guys. Its insane. But, I still miss her. But I won’t as soon as I find the next Ms. Ex-girlfriend.
And finally...
1) Somehow solidify what I'm going to be doing for the next chunk of my life. If that's grad school, than I need to know if I'm in. If that's work, than I need a job. If that's bumming around, than I need to shoot myself, or move to the caribbean and live on a beach.
Doing better with this one. Grad school for the next year and a half, industry after that for four or five years, and after that: PHd. Then? Either teach as a prof. or get whatever job I fucking want, work for awhile, retire, and live the rest of my life in some remote location with a husky and a shotgun.
And that’ll be my life, with any bit of luck.
Miss Any?
Alright, we're gonna give this a shot
January 02, 2005
Let's see how badly I failed these last year
December 31, 2004
Okay, so its trendy
December 28, 2004
Its just like that asshole, Joe fucking Lieberman. Annoying and rather pointless.
December 27, 2004
Is this a typical Christmas?
December 26, 2004